After two years, no cataclysmic events have unfolded, but those fears still surface. Thankfully, I have been graced with perseverance, because I keep bringing the prayer to God in an attempt to unite myself more closely with Jesus. Smaller scale insights have come. Whether they are directly attributable to this prayer of mine, I cannot tell, but I keep seeking God. It's comforting and has helped me to feel better about my spirtual life. I do think I have grown in my connection to Our Lord's Passion.
During Lent, my efforts have more meaning, and this Lent, two sentiments have been deepened in association with my prayer and the crucified Christ.
|Jesus falls a third time|
|Jesus in Gethsamane|
The second relates to my cutting back and/or eliminating television and Facebook during Lent. I am more productive when doing these things, but I am also more lonely. My friends on Facebook, and the characters in the regularly scheduled TV shows I watch, do provide me some level of companionship, as silly as that may sound. One day, when I was contemplating my loneliness, I remembered Jesus' loneliness while praying at Gethsemane. Now I offer it up and my spiritual life has more purpose and meaning.
I hope your Lent is bearing many fruits in the name of the Lord.
In Jesus, Mary, and Joseph,
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